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Sometimes it takes a good fall to really know where you stand.. I fall too fast crash too hard forgive too easily and care too much… When you’re happy you enjoy the music when you’re sad you understand the lyrics… It’s easier too bleed your problems out… I don’t need you too make me feel like shit i do that myself.. You will always be my favorite what If?? Sometimes i get sad about everything all at once… I wanted to be your favorite hello and your hardest goodbye.. I don’t think people understand how stressful it is to explain what’s going on in your head when you don’t even understand it yourself.. I,miss the old happy me… Her heart was a secret garden and the walls were very high… Whats left unsaid says it all.. This world is a jungle you either fight or run forever.. It’s not my fault that i like you Its your fault for having everything I love.. As long as we’re under the same moon I’ll feel close too you…

Thinking about your lips, your touch and that intense semi masculine scent tugging away off of your skin and intruding its way into my lungs turned me on in ways where flying chains and red lace could never express into words.

Your glare at my body certified you were bad for me from the very start..yet I liked it.

every single little slip up I make that potentially ruins me is always in the fault of some silly girl like you- trying to wrap me around your finger like a band, and every single time It works in perfect harmony.

But why?

Why do i always give in to the same mistakes?

Maybe its because of the thrill of the jump before the crash, it would make sense at least. But at the same time I feel that gap in my soul whenever I speak to you. Somethings missing, and I know it. I know you’ll never be enough. That’s why after the crash I get up and leap so blindly for the next fall. Knowing non of you will ever be enough.

Then what is it?

What could possibly be the very thing to fill the consistent gaping hole in my existence and craves to be filled, because it certainly isn’t you. It’s only ever temporary.

As you stare at my exposed meaningless corpse and groan I ponder at the ceiling in hope for some rationality to my situation.

Hmm what if?

What if the very thing i’m missing is…

A warm heart.

#coldasice

You’re a perfect rhythm to the melody/ my heart beats/, like R&B when two lovers souls meet/,together/ and I dont care what others say to me your my foundation meaning You’re Solid like my Rock who I Roll with and we been Rockin for awhile now, You’re the only Person I want stroll with, Together we mix like records on a turntable, dancing to our own beat cause we are our own label, so we make our own music that’s infused with, a little country, a gangster rap, as we let our hips hop all the country, laughing, smiling and talkin all that Jazz, yeah we know we’re silly so yall can kiss our mmmm, sensor curse words careful not to detriment the kids, who sing our lyrics that lifts their spirit as the mass grin, if language barriers them from Understanding how we mash then we improvise and add in, a little remix with me singing contemporary Spanish , we never care whose looking as we get our boogie on, as our groove switches to Spanish trap music,/ damn I love how we move with, a trace of elegance similar to sounds of classic mozart it’s like our souls are/, intertwining playing off each other forming in to something deep like some blues brothers. Heavy like 11 tons of metal, I love placing U on A pedestal, Cause I’m that type of gal, did I mention you are the melody I mettle in and I love that we mix like AmPM Drinks but we don’t call it Suicide, knowing it represents you and I and we definitely are not no death metal cause together we have something real that’ll ill hope never dies even when our bodies fade our spirits will dance in the sky I love the sound of music that’s made between You and I

I planted the seed beneath my favorite tree, it listen while I bragged about this dream and supported me when I told it what was coming to be. Hoping one day you’ll discover the alchemy that lies in the reaction of our chemistry. My heart is a mix of contusions and bruises held together by the gold bleeding through it. Filled by heartbreaks, its the fire that dances to silent music and if you listen closely you’ll hear it beating to your movement.

She reads a romance novel, making her 26 years of single life lonely and empty. She reads a lot of romance novels hoping that some day she will get to meet her soulmate in a bizarre way like in the novels. She wants to feel the sparks and the butterflies in her stomach. She wants to feel and touch her love. But, because of her personality no can do. She sighs out of loneliness but also smiles as she thinks, “Good for them, they’ve found each other.” while reading the romance novel.

She wonders, when is it that she will get to fill that void in her heart while staring blankly at the white wall.

She puts down the book on the table and walks to her window. She opens the window and immediately, the strong wind of the nature hits her body, causing goosebumps to arise all over her body as she shivers a little. Her long blonde hair dances along with the wind. She closes her eyes feeling the chilly wind of the night and smiles. She then looks up at the sky, the moon light falling on her silky smooth skin making her shine even more than ever. The thousands of glimmering stars, reflects in her eyes making them look as beautiful as diamonds.

“Love.” she whispers and smiles to herself.

“This can be my love.” she says, looking at the sky and smiling.

I use to live each day in the history of yesterday. Walking backwards never forward never knowing where I’m going. Walking into people saying sorry never hello. I could only see today when it becomes a yesterday. I never see in front of me, walking backwards everyday. Like a meteor I traveled flying aimlessly like meteors i stopped when i flew into a rock. I exploded, mentally imploded like a dumbass I got mad setting revenge against my past. It didn’t last. Destiny’s what meant to be summarized in history. As if it was a piece of me. the pain of every yesterday can’t define what’s meant to be. My memories are history but never what defines as me, or tell me what I’d ever be. I had to make some hard decisions turning in the right direction. Making choices in an instant. Made them quick no hesitation. Not going to lie that shit was hard. To say good bye to yesterday. I turned around got in the game. Humbled by my stubborn shame. I’m not afraid to work real hard, I was afraid to play my cards. I turned my pain of yesterday into hope and brighter days. My life began to turn around, I start to reach a high ground. I can see in front of me. The obstacles I need to beat. I brace myself, and clinch my fist. I’m going to make life changing risk. Good bye domestic violence. I am leaving in a silence. I am never coming back. I’ve change my course. I’ve changed my track. Good bye fear. Good bye Pain. I’m now here. I’ve changed my lane. Yesterday don’t look for me, I’m nothing like I use to be. Let me be clear I’ve changed my gear. This is my life I’m going to steer. No more chances, no more glances in my sideview mirror. I took responsibility now everything is clearer. Reality, mortality, recognizing finally that I am my own hero. No more second guessing, hesitating, or debating. Stay Progressing, always learning, dont be afraid of turning. Go discover, find a lover, stay hopeful ’til it over. Good Bye Yesterday. For finally I see Today walking forward in from yesterday.

I have learn to live with you so long but I have to let you Go. I allowed you to take control of me for too long but not anymore. this relationship we shared have to come to an end. PAST it’s time we go separate ways. I know you have been part of my journey, I learned so many lessons and now it’s time I focus on what’s forward. it’s too late for me to change my mind for the decision is already made.

I look up above and the only thing I see is Greatness. in the midst of all the ups and downs of life I see a Warrior and Saviors in me. Life thought it was breaking me but didn’t know it was shaping me to be brave like a lion. I begin to take Charge and Authority over my life. When I look in the mirror I see a champion.

I survived the storms, the struggles, my fears and everything that ever let me down. I pushed through my disappointments and my Pain that led me to Conceive my Destiny. I was hungry enough to want to know more about the word. I realize that the universe will never give you something you can’t handle, there is no Storm that can ever be still and listen to the voice of creator. what amazes me is that I am the masterpiece and nothing can ever stop me from loving me.

There had been situations where ,the feeling of being different from everyone comes, it makes us down, and then we lose our worth in order to become the way people want. As humans we forget the core meaning of living,and whatever seems different we try to leave it apart considering it as weakness but it’s just a thought as there is nothing in this world which is wrong or weak .we must make those points powerful in us which is always pointed as our mistakes or weakness ……this small of mine is based on my experiences of my life

So good friends became lovers. Two people who just felt something so right in the most unexpected time of their life. They finally started writing their thought-to-be-impossible “Once upon a time.”

It was in a dawn of 18th of May, when a gal finally casted the stones and let the words fly out her mouth to reach the ears of the girl which went like, “’Will you be my girlfriend?”. The girl’s heartbeat surprisingly joined a race and jumped off and pounded so fast. She giggled and asked the gal to say it once more just to reassure what she heard was accurate even though she already had the answer in her mind which came from her heart days before the happening of that life changing question for both of them. An answer that she prayed and prepared for because of the series of fortunate events they made together in less than a month. Yes! Indeed a yes one. What else could be the answer to expect from a heart who learned and realized that falling in love with someone would take a simple walk in the park.

How many times have you failed? I’ve done so 100 times, and just gave up on what I was trying to accomplish.

I remember telling myself that I wanted to be fit. I would get up in the morning and run, pound a bunch of weights and cut out carbs. But I lost no weight at all.

And so I gave up.

I remember trying to think of more ways to be productive. Changing my routine, and adding more tasks I wanted to do, I even changed my habits and thought positive. But I was still was depressed and down

And so I gave up.

What Ive learnt however, was that while I was angry and upset at my failure I didn’t give myself any credit for even the smallest accomplishments.

I hustled at work, dealt with the drama, and still managed to get a high position and pretty good pay check. And instead of being grateful and realizing that my failures helped me grow … I just got angry and depressed

I managed to jog more than a KM tomorrow, when one week ago I couldnt even get half a KM in. Yet I was still upset … I used to be able to do 5 KM.

But I didnt realize that getting back to a KM was a success. Even if I failed and stopped and panted like no tomorrow … I realized I had to be grateful and appreciate my success.

And the days went by I felt stronger, more confident, more relaxed, ready to take on this world.

It is okay to fail, to feel down and hurt … but trying to take that negative feeling one day, and start the next day fresh.

Be grateful for even the smallest wins, and realize your failures will make you stronger as you work more and more on achieving your goal.

Do this for a week .. and see how you feel after. Trust me, you won’t regret it 🙂